WORRY

“Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?” Matthew 6:25-26 NKJV


Twenty-eight years ago, I had a struggle with a choice that would impact my future in a significant way. I was newly married and had been at my job for a few years. I had a dream one night that I was a horse (crazy right?!). I had a bridle in my mouth and whichever way it was tugged, I headed that direction. The one pulling the reigns was my employer. I had another business that I had been doing on the side for about 3 years and it was time to make a decision. Was I going to live in the relative comfort my job provided with opportunities to advance in the engineering department or was I going to step out on my own? I began worrying about how I was going to support my wife and future family if I decided to run my own business. There was so much security in my job which included a 401K program and health insurance. I struggled with worrying about how things would look in the future. I asked the Lord to speak to me through his Word.
Guess what He did? He used this very scripture. I woke one morning and did my devotional and it was this scripture. I felt I had been heard. That afternoon, I did another study on my lunch break and guess which scripture it was. This same one. It sounded better. That evening as I spent more time in another devotional, for the 3rd time, the same scripture was the focus. I prayed that evening and asked the Lord if He would just confirm it once more through a verbal witness (why?). I went to church Sunday morning and the pastor got up to preach. He said, "This is not what I am preaching on today, but the Lord impressed on my spirit that I should share this scripture." You got it, the same scripture! I headed to the alter after church to thank God for His faithfulness. The next morning I went in and turned in my resignation. I think I may have had less worry in my life then than I do now. Trusting was so much easier when I had little. Now that I have more family, more stuff and more responsibilities, my worry may have grown to be larger than my faith. I would love to say that even after God has proven Himself time and time again, I never worry, but that isn't the case. Worry is the tool the enemy uses to keep me in a place where I am stagnate and doubtful. I need to be reminded daily, that He is my portion. Nothing has access to me without it first passing through His hands whether it be a blessing or a trial. God's promise is that He will never leave me or forsake me in either of those scenarios.

Do you worry about tomorrow? What are you afraid of? Consider your whole life. How many yesterdays have you survived compared to the number of tomorrow's you worry about? Remembering how God has moved in your life in the worst times, all the yesterdays, allows you to see that tomorrow is still in His hands....as it always has been.